craftymama

I was thinking about it today,and I am realizing that this is actually the most weight that I have ever lost!  So many women my age have yo-yo’ed in weight,and I never really have,I have been this weight for the last 16 years,pretty much.  Maybe that’s what is making me think about this lately,my son just turned 16 years old,and the weight that I have been carrying around is from my pregnancy with him.  I have been over,I would say,215 lbs. for all of my adult life,I was 18 when I had my oldest son.   If I keep losing weight, I am going to start being a weight that I haven’t been for so long!  I don’t know why this is feeling weird for me, but it just is.  It is like new territory for me!  It feels so good that I have kept with this, it was just the right time for me to do it, I don’t think that I was ready to do this before, it just wouldn’t have stuck.

Last night, my husband walked in the house with the worst thing ever… a McDonald’s bag!  I just wanted to just knock him upside his noggin’!  I’ll be honest now.  I ate what amounted to about a handful of fries,and one of those little plain hamburgers.  It was good, but I would have just been just as happy with a salad or one of my favorite lean cuisines!(sesame chicken,if you’re curious.)  Then about an hour later, I had this horrible queasy feeling in my stomach! I haven’t had any fast food in about 3 months. The grease was just sitting in my stomach.  That was enough to keep me eating healthy!

I shared this today in the new group that I’m in(the phoenix, I love it, hey girls!)and I think it is a great motto to have-

“A goal is a dream taken seriously.”   Remember that, because that is what we are doing here,every last one of us.  We are all worth the effort!

“Will this matter to me a year from now?”that has been a mantra that I use in everyday life sometimes.  I think it’s just something to put things in perspective and “not sweat the small stuff”.  But I’ve been thinking about something that one of my good buddies on here wrote to me recently, I have been getting so caught up in the pound for pound mentality.  If there is a week that goes by and I don’t lose, I feel like a failure.  I know there are so many things that can happen in our bodies, water weight, that time of the month, what time of the day you step on the scale.   I think what it is, with me at least, is that I really feel like I need to see something tangible, to show that all of these changes,and all of this hard work, has been worth it! I’ve never thought of myself as an impatient person, but when it comes to weight loss, I think I am. 

I have been stuck in a tiny plateau for the last 2-3 weeks,and was very frustrated about it, but then I had remembered that I had taken all of my measurements about a month ago.  So, earlier this week, I got the measuring tape out, and did all of my measurements again,and the most amazing thing happened… it showed that I had lost a total of eight and a half inches,in the last month!  So, what I am realizing is that no matter what the scale is saying, my body is changing.  Of course, I would love it if all of those inches were concentrated in my stomach area, but that’s just not how it works, I guess!lol    The funny thing is one of the places where I’ve noticed that I’ve lost weight is in my hands! Of all places,geez!  My wedding ring keeps wanting to fall off!  I was hoping to wait until I’ve gotten closer to my goal weight, before I resize it, but we’ll see.  Today I saw two co-workers that I have not seen in about a month,and they both said that she could definately see the weight loss in my face. I’m thinking to myself, “that’s all well and good, but I wanna see this “muffin top” disappearing from the top of my size 20 jeans!” lol 

But really, what I am learning is that this is a journey,and we can’t get stuck in a rut, there will be plateau’s,but if we just keep doing what we’re doing, things will inevitably be different in a year from now, it’s just the way it works!